to myself.

and all good things come to an end.

i dunno if i want to cry, laugh or what.
it pains me it hurts me. yet i'm breathing new air.

i have to learn to be free.. to be independent.
too reliant on those who are nice to me..
too easily attracted.. attracting.. wtf!

argh!
kill me pls! )=

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i'm feeling suspicious.

or am i too worried?

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its so hard.
its really so hard!

i miss him terribly.

so bad that i dunno what can express the feelings in me.

and each time whn we meet, the amt of time we spent tgt was really... PATHETIC.

gosh.

i am feeling despair.

i feel miserable and lonely.

sobs.

is this what love calls for?
and if its so, will i gain something really wonderful, beautiful and happy in the years to come whn we get married?

i'm lost.struggling. help me.

Labels: distance, lost, love

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love aint easy.

nobody said so too.

i need to loosen grip.
loosen my emotions.
i must be in control of myself, my emotions.

do all it takes.
sacrifices to make,commitments to make.

i sacrificed my frds. he did the same. but he said it out first. is he feeling painful and upset he had to do it?

but i hv never complaint about it.

but i believe i have complain abt other things before. so perhaps that's how he felt too.
terrible. suck.

i wan to be a better gf. seriously. i think i suck.

先苦后甜. as exactly as what the phrase says.

keep things simple, the way things are.
look at things the way they are and keep it simple.
loosen up and be natural.

love is unconditional.
no conditions, no terms, no fairness, no exchanges.

since i decide to love, i must give my everything, all my unconditional love.

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is this what love is all about?

i'm in terrible pain.
i'm so lost.

i've been holding on so tight, so overly tight.
its killin us.

i have to loosen the tight to give it air to grow on its own.

he dedicated "swear it again" to me today.

why did i cry?
why did i say i dun feel his love?

there's a lot more downs and obstacles ahead to overcome for the beautiful world to come.

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is love meant to be this?

or am i getting too uptight?

i must relax, let my minds rest.

i wan a beautiful world with him remember? so i have to bear with the tough now first. den in the future everything will be great.

Do all it takes.
sacrifices to take, committments to make.
Keep everything simple and keep it as what it is.

everything will turn out great.

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true and helpful i believe.
to completely stop unnecessary quarrels. this can help me keep things simple.

When you start to feel that you must get the other person to agree with you at all costs, you know you must stop arguing. Follow these guidelines:

Think: Is there anything that could be gained from the argument at this point? If the answer is no, it's time to stop talking, no matter how angry you are.

Don't repeat yourself. Making your point once is much more powerful than repeating it over and over again. This applies in work situations too. Think of yourself like a lawyer presenting a brief. Say what you think, then keep your mouth shut. "Anything further that you say at this point is going to screw up your best chance at a good outcome," says Wolf.

Don't respond to retorts that are designed to make you angry. Ignore them. If your partner or father or friend baits you by saying something like: "You're just like your mother" or "You always say that!" recognize it for what it is and tune it out.

When you hand out advice, don't require the other person to recognize it as the most brilliant suggestion ever. Just say it and move on.

Above all, get used to the idea that the best outcome of an argument is that it ends. Don't cling to the unrealistic expectation that you'll be able to resolve the problem or get the other person to see it your way. Conciliation doesn't happen when two people are face to face, Wolf says. It happens in your own head, hours or days after the fight.

Maybe you'll be able to resolve the issue a couple of weeks later, when the feelings have died down. But many arguments never to do get settled. That's normal. "In the best relationships, there remain serious pockets of unresolved bitterness," says Wolf. Learning how to argue -- and learning how to stop -- will prevent these disagreements from damaging your relationship

Labels: simple

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